Fraudulence, anhedonic emptiness, and the sealed self — the Hal-condition register outside the novel
echoes
From: Good Old Neon
- Early text: the fraudulence paradox: "the more time and effort
you put into trying to appear impressive or attractive to other people, the
less impressive or attractive you felt inside—you were a fraud."
[logic-course ¶]; Beverly's diagnostic-machine image: "some piece of
ultra-expensive new medical or diagnostic equipment that can discern more
about you in one quick scan than you could ever know about yourself—but the
equipment doesn’t care about you, you’re just a sequence of processes and
codes" [late]; and the coda's description of the dead classmate — the "neon
aura around him all the time of scholastic and athletic excellence" [final
¶].
- IJ echo: Hal's condition in IJ — the high-functioning surface (athletic
and scholastic excellence) over an interior that feels hollow, unreachable,
unable to feel or connect; the boy who is in here but cannot make it read
from outside. The coda's "neon aura … of scholastic and athletic
excellence" is nearly a description of how Hal appears to others just as he
is going dark.
- Weight: shared-preoccupation (oeuvre-scoped)