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Port Washington: Schacht, since the knee, stopped caring and got better

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He really doesn’t care all that much whether he wins anymore, since first the Crohn’s and then the knee at sixteen. He’d probably now describe his desire to win as a preference, nothing more. What’s singular is that his tennis seems to have improved slightly in the two years since he stopped really caring.

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Schacht is the paradox's living demonstration, arrived at by injury rather than doctrine: the Crohn's and the ruined knee burned the ego out of his game, and "his desire to win" shrank to "a preference, nothing more" — whereupon, singularly, the tennis got better, "fuller, looser, its edges less jagged." The broken body freed from the urge to win is the quiet counter-model to Hal's grinding compulsion. It's why Schtitt warmed to him after the knee: Schacht accidentally reached the not-caring half of the creed the whole academy is trying to teach on purpose.

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