Hal supine: Accomplice!, the blizzard, Weston — "I lay there and could almost…"
I lay there and could almost remember Orin telling me something almost moving that Himself had once told him. Something to do with Accomplice! The memory hung somewhere just out of conscious reach, and its tip-of-the-tongue inaccessibility felt too much like the preface to another attack. I accepted it: I could not remember.
Context
The block that p. 955 (in the spine) releases: Hal reaches for the one memory that would bridge his meek remembered father and the sensibility that made Accomplice! — and it won't come. Recall block rendered physically, wired straight into the panic-attack machinery: failing to remember feels like the onset of an attack, so he stops trying.