The Enfield Marine units — "Her deal is apparently that she’s…"
Her deal is apparently that she’s almost psychotically terrified of the possibility that she might be either blind or paralyzed or both. So e.g. she keeps her eyes shut tight 24/7/365 out of the reasoning that as long as she keeps her eyes shut tight she can find hope in the possibility that if she was to open them she’d be able to see, they say; but that if she were ever to actually open her eyes and actually not be able to see, she reasons, she’s lost that precious like margin of hope that she’s maybe not blind.
Context
The Debilitatingly Phobic lady of n.67: a disability constituted entirely by the dread of disability — self-protective blindness indistinguishable, from any distance the book can reach, from blindness — and the cops' coda generalizes her into the Shed's unifying law, terror that manufactures its own object. She is the U.H.I.D. veil's dark twin: where the veil hides the face to disarm the gaze, she blinds the gaze to keep hope of a face.