Joelle's last walk — "No more deciding to stop at…"
No more deciding to stop at 2300h. and then barely getting through the hour's show and hurtling back home at 0130h. and smoking the Chore Boy's resins and not stopping after all. No more throwing the Material away and then half an hour later rooting through the trash, no more all-fours scrutiny of the carpet in hopes of a piece of lint that looks enough like the Material to try to smoke.
Context
The "no more" litany on the way to the suicide-party: quit-and-relapse, discard-and-retrieve, down to smoking carpet lint that merely resembles the Material. Note the micro-economy: waste rooted back out of the trash and burned as fuel. Erdedy's wheel, Joelle's version — and the suicide is her plan for snapping the circle.