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Lady Delphina and the last time that was penultimate — "wanting more of it so badly…"

quote

wanting more of it so badly she could feel her brain heaving around in its skull

Context

The procurement rendered as ritual farewell to the dealer: every goodbye to Lady Delphina is "the last time," each one revealed by the next to have been merely the penultimate, and this final buy is oversized and overpaid as a generous parting — the same "one more last time" architecture the whole theme runs on, here with the craving so bodily she can feel her brain move in its skull. The last time is always penultimate until the actual last time, which this is meant to be.

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