Lady Delphina and the last time that was penultimate
so hard to just cut it off in mid-binge, on a Saturday, unless you just passed out, to tell L.D. when she’d said goodbye and it was the last time it had been really the penultimate time but that this was the last time, this was goodbye for real, and get serious weight from Lady Delphina, pay her twice the 8-gram rate as a generous farewell
Context
The procurement rendered as ritual farewell to the dealer: every goodbye to Lady Delphina is "the last time," each one revealed by the next to have been merely the penultimate, and this final buy is oversized and overpaid as a generous parting — the same "one more last time" architecture the whole theme runs on, here with the craving so bodily she can feel her brain move in its skull. The last time is always penultimate until the actual last time, which this is meant to be.