the afflated orgasm of the heart, god and lover of rock
The ’base frees and condenses, compresses the whole experience to the implosion of one terrible shattering spike in the graph, an afflated orgasm of the heart that makes her feel, truly, attractive, sheltered by limits, deveiled and loved, observed and alone and sufficient and female, full, as if watched for an instant by God.
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What the drug actually delivers, and why nothing can compete with it: a single shattering spike that makes her feel loved, seen, sufficient, whole — watched for an instant by God. The Substance is named plainly as both god and lover, the thing that gives her the deveiled, sheltered wholeness no person has, which is exactly why it is unquitable — it isn't a habit she has but the relationship her whole life is organized around.