IJ study archive

The perfect, self-loathing, enmeshing mother — the Avril devouring-mother dynamic

echoes

From: Suicide as a Sort of Present

  • Early text: the impeccable-outside / loathing-inside mother: "The more loathsome the child was, the more loving the mother required herself to be." [mid]; the enmeshment: "there existed only a very tiny and indistinct separation in the mother’s mind between her own identity and that of her small child" — "The child appeared in a sense to be the mother’s own reflection in a diminishing and deeply flawed mirror." [mid]; the transmission and the son's enactment: "the mother took all that was imperfect in him deep into herself and bore it all and thus absolved him, redeemed and renewed him, even as she added to her own inner fund of loathing"; "And so the son—desperate, as are all children, to repay the perfect love we may expect only of mothers—expressed it all for her." [close]
  • IJ echo: IJ's Avril — the outwardly perfect, boundlessly accommodating, impossibly high-standard mother whose smothering (paired with JOI's remoteness) is read as the sons' damage (the archive's avril-devouring-mother crux); the enmeshment and over-closeness that the avril-orin material also touches; and the Incandenza suicides (JOI's; the family's self-destruction pattern) as the discharge of unbearable interior pressure. The fable strips the dynamic to its skeleton: perfect maternal love as the conduit of maternal self-hatred, the son suiciding to repay it.
  • Weight: shared-preoccupation (oeuvre-scoped)