The "lethally beautiful" in-joke and "I hid by hiddenness"

pivotal · UNDATED

• When: UNDATED (the joke from her JOI-collaboration years; the self-reading stated ?/20 Nov YDAU)
• What: Joelle debunks the perfection/"too perfect" rumors as academic: the phrase was JOI's dry ironic jab at her own U.H.I.D. pose of lethal beauty (a joke derived from the Medusa-Odalisk film); "even in jokes he never talked about an anti-version or antidote." And her clearest self-diagnosis: even inside U.H.I.D. she "hid by hiddenness, in denial about the deformity itself" — leaving the deformity-or-perfection question deliberately unresolved.