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Of Himself’s umbrella hung by its handle from the edge of the mail table just inside the Headmaster’s House’s foyer. […] I think of John N. R. Wayne, who would have won this year’s WhataBurger, standing watch in a mask as Donald Gately and I dig up my father’s head.
Context
Strapped to the gurney after his collapse in the Deans' office, Hal's mind runs a slideshow, and the dead father keeps organizing it. First the relic — Himself's umbrella still hanging where he left it, the ordinary object a suicide leaves behind that goes on quietly belonging to nobody. Then the image the whole book will circle back to: the son, with a masked sentry and a recovering addict he hasn't met yet, digging up his father's buried head. The raw drops it with no setup and no follow-through, one item in a list that also holds the Moms alphabetizing soup and "the hypophalangial Grief-Therapist" — the therapist the father's death produced, named here in passing, worked out in full only much later. Whatever this exhumation is (literal, dreamed, prophetic), the scene offers no gloss: it is simply what a collapsing son's associations keep arriving at. The head, not the man.