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The White Flag AA meeting (pp. 357–359)

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In the dream Gately and row after row of totally average and non-unique U.S. citizens were kneeling on their knees on polyester cushions in a crummy low-rent church basement. The basement was your average low-rent church basement except for this dream-church’s basement walls were of like this weird thin clean clear glass. […] it was weird because nobody seemed to have any clear idea why they were all on their knees, and there was like no tier-boss or sergeant-at-arms-type figure around coercing them into kneeling, and yet there was this sense of some compelling unspoken reason why they were all kneeling. It was one of those dream things where it didn’t make sense but did. […] Gately in his dream looked slowly up overhead at the ceiling’s exposed pipes and could now all of a sudden see, rotating slow and silent through the basement a meter above the different-shaped and -colored heads of the kneeling assembly, he could see a long plain hooked stick, like the crook of a giant shepherd, like the hook that appears from stage-left and drags bad acts out of tomato-range, moving slowly above them in French-curled circles, almost demurely, as if quietly scanning; and when a mild-faced guy in a cardigan happened to stand up and was hooked by the hooked stick and pulled ass-over-teakettle out through the soundless glass membrane Gately turned his big head as far as he could without leaving the cushion and could see, now, just outside the wall’s clean pane, trolling with the big stick, an extraordinarily snappily dressed and authoritative figure manipulating the giant shepherd’s crook with one hand and coolly examining the nails of his other hand from behind a mask that was simply the plain yellow smily-face circle that accompanied invitations to have a nice day. […] It manipulated the big stick in the coolly purposeful way of the sort of angler who you know isn’t going to throw back anything he catches.

Context

Gately's "epiphanic AA-related nocturnal dream he'll be the first to admit was banally trite" (flagged [n.140] — the thirteen-word endnote is in Texture), dreamt as a new resident the night he moved up to the 3-Man room. The whole thing runs on dream-logic the text names as such ("one of those dream things where it didn't make sense but did"): the kneeling congregation, the self-healing glass membrane, the Disease as a snappily dressed angler in a smily-face mask, patient as death. Its furniture invades Gately's waking life later in the same scene — the pinwheeling-girl fantasy (p. 364), the smily-face he imagines projected on Joelle's veil (pp. 366-367) — both waking, so not extracted, but that's this dream metastasizing.

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