The White Flag AA meeting (pp. 348–349)
But so when you get to this jumping-off place at the Finish of your Substance-career you can either take up the Luger or blade and eliminate your own personal map—this can be at age sixty, or twenty-seven, or seventeen—or you can get out the very beginning of the Yellow Pages or InterNet Psych-Svce File and make a blubbering 0200h. phone call and admit to a gentle grandparentish voice that you’re in trouble, deadly serious trouble […] you sit there on what’s left of your furniture in the lavender dawnlight and realize that by now you literally have no other choices besides trying this AA thing or else eliminating your map
Context
The fork restated in second person, with the ages filled in and the alternative made concrete: the blubbering 0200h. phone call. "No other choices besides trying this AA thing or else eliminating your map" is the sentence the dead-infant speaker's window-ledge and Gately's whole staffer creed keep pointing back to.