Kate Gompert on the psych ward — "The feeling is why I want…"
‘The feeling is why I want to. The feeling is the reason I want to die. I’m here because I want to die. That’s why I’m in a room without windows and with cages over the lightbulbs and no lock on the toilet door. Why they took my shoelaces and my belt. But I notice they don’t take away the feeling do they.’
Context
The windowless-room speech: the ward can confiscate every instrument of suicide but not its cause. Cages over the lightbulbs while the actual cage is the feeling itself — the encagement figure that Joelle's "cage that has entered her" and the essay's doorless cages keep escalating.