Hal at the Inner-Infant meeting (p. 799)

quote

If you asked Hal to describe his feelings as he looked for room 32A the best he could do would be to say he wished he were somewhere else and feeling some way besides how he felt.

Context

Hal padding through the silent halls of Quabbin Recovery Systems, booklet held out "like a crucifix": as close as third-person Hal gets to naming the thing — no feeling he can name, just the wish for any other one. Dysphoria defined by pure aversion.

Quoted from

Scene 160: hal inner infant meeting

In anthology

Depression and Anhedoniasupporting