the first intentional lines, dated and placed
was the first historical time Joelle intentionally did lines of cocaine to keep from sleeping.
Context
The freebase love-affair's first step, fixed to a night and a reason: the first deliberate cocaine taken not for pleasure but to stay awake, on the Thanksgiving her guts told her the family could cut out her organs without blinking. The origin of the addiction is a dread it was recruited to hold off — she is at the refrigerator at 0400, cleaning, while the nightmare she feels belongs to her plays out in the next room.