Remember-Whenning the man he killed
Gately cops a black surge of Remember-Whenning, the babbling little football-head Québecer he’d killed by gagging a man with a bad cold. This line of thinking is intolerable.
Context
The past comes for him mid-crisis in the Program's exact term — Remember-Whenning, the romance-of-the-old-days the fellowship warns against — but here it delivers not nostalgia but the burglary's dead man, the accidental homicide surfacing as a black surge he cannot hold. "This line of thinking is intolerable" is the recovering addict's whole relation to his wreckage: the amends he can never make, the memory the doctrine names and then can only tell him to set down, because carrying it is not survivable.