marijuana as the secret center of a life
But I love it so much. Sometimes it’s like the center of my life.
Context
The admission the whole scene has been circling, and the one the clinical vocabulary keeps missing: not a minor recreational substance but the organizing love of her life, something she knows does her harm and cannot relinquish. "The center of my life" is the addict's true relation to the object, stated plainly by a patient everyone on the ward is treating for something else.